I've had two weeks in the mountains, and little need for speech. I find I'm quieter as I get older, and would rather listen than speak. I'm a better listener than I used to be. On the occasions when speaking was the order of the day, I did well, because I was relaxed. Nowadays, there is nothing I feel I have to prove - no credentials to present. I see others making great effort to define themselves, and I have no similar urge. I just want the moment, the connection, but fresh, without background. I have many long term friends to whom I need no introduction, and others can think what they want of me. I'm not trying to control my image any more. It's very freeing.
So now as I enter a week when I will have many interactions and a baby shower to host, I feel ready to keep myself balanced and open. This getting away is a gift, and I deeply appreciate it.
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