I'm amazed at how smoothly the writing group I'm in runs. Right speech is so present. Last night we took the time to talk about being blocked and intimidated about writing, and it was heartfelt and important. One of the participants reminded me I'd not followed through on a promise to send her prompts to help her get started on writing a piece. I had truly forgotten the minute I'd promised her, and I felt a pang for my thoughtlessness. I had agreed many weeks ago. But mainly, I was so grateful she trusted me enough to remind me. Another person also wanted prompts, so this morning I've just finished sending the group 20 prompts. It was easy for me to do: but evidently I needed a prompt myself to get the job done. This time I wrote a huge reminder note last night, then carried it to the computer with me this morning, determined to get the deed done before forgetfulness overcame me yet again.
And I had such fun thinking up these prompts. It was not a task to dread, not at all. One of my problems is I am a morning person. I wake up bright eyed and bushy tailed, as they say, and run down like a clock throughout the day. By evening, my promises are no good, my brain is half asleep and work does not get done. Because this is a night group instead of daytime, which I would have preferred, I'm really not at my best. I make it through plays and dinner parties by napping beforehand or caffeine. I'm grateful that last night made me again aware of these personal limitations. I can counter them, if I'm diligent. I want to bring my best self to this group, and I fear I have not been doing that. It's never too late, however, as Suzuki Roshi said, so armed with new resolve, I am going to listen and learn and improve with the help of my friends.
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