This morning my son-in-law came over to load the wedding photos on my computer. And he also informed me his job may be ending, due to the company that bought out the company he works for closing the sites. So maybe he and my youngest will be moving up north, and though it's all uncertain, I was upset and trying not to jump to conclusions. Everything changes. And everything changes faster when you get older. Nothing was ever certain as he hales from the east coast, but fear of separation and disruption of my life and access to my kids arose like a bat out of hell.
I like to say everything changes but bop along assuming the good stuff will continue. Though I practice awareness of change, I don't like it any better than the next person. But my practice at least aids me in not jumping ahead to the unknown and worrying about scenarios that have not and may never occur. So now I'm back to enjoying a beautiful day, where three of my four kids live in my area, and not fast forwarding to everyone moving and leaving us alone. Not likely, and if it were to happen, I can make choices like a time share where they are, moving, traveling to them often, the whole nine yards. So I whined to myself in my head for a while, and now I'm back to earth. An earth I love, in which I am blessed, and which though moving and changing constantly, is my beloved home.
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