I'm already thinking ahead to when our Buddhist study group meets for the last time. Our teacher will explain her decision, and we will respond lovingly and tenderly, for we have been expecting this for some time. We've all been worried about her driving here, and no one came up with a feasable alternative. I'm thinking I want to write something down ahead and polish it a bit to give it to her, so that I include all my gratitude and appreciation and don't leave anything out. Careful speech. And even in the emails so far, we've all spoken of our sadness. Things change. But knowing so doesn't make things easier.
Magic words like "gratitude" help keep me focused on what is true and right. This teacher transformed my life and the lives of everyone I've touched. My behavior has altered and my mind as well. My heart is wide open because of her guidance. Another word that comes to mind is "blessing", because her coming into my life feels entirely like an act of grace. And her ordinary humanity showed me the way to walk the path, fall off, get on again, and continue, no matter my mistakes and distractions. Yes, I believe I will write an open letter to her. So that she and all her family and friends will have my testimony now, not later.
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