I just wrote a difficult email to the mother of my foster granddaughter saying I wasn't available weekly to pick up the granddaughter on her short day at school. I want to spend time with my baby grandson and help my daughter prepare for her baby, and see more of the granddaughter who is away. I also have several trips planned and classes I want to take and some writing to do. But what do I feel after spending ten years being dependable? Guilty, guilty, guilty! Now her mother has remarried and her husband has adopted the daughter and he has a dad, stepmother, mother, sisters, brothers-in-law and nieces and nephews. She has a full family life and a rich one. My only slot is as a kind of child care. But she's eleven now and I'd rather do childcare for my son and daughters. And I'm too restricted by her school schedule.
So I'm saying no. I may need to be hospitalized, but I've done it. It's scary!
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