The last two weeks have been tumultuous. We've been helping our older daughter through brain radiation, supporting her and our granddaughter, and in a constant state of "Don't Know". This will continue when she begins her chemo, and her future uncertain. Though I know everybody's future is uncertain, or certain, if you will, my hopes for her long life and lack of suffering can't help but surface. Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night, well, actually I wake up every night in the middle of the night, and I don't remember my daughter has this diagnosis hanging over her for a minute. Then I remember. How is it for her? Unbearable at times, I assume. She is being brave and positive most of the time, and going about her work, and parenting and relationships as best she can. She is asking for help when she needs it. Her courage fires up my own.
I lost a dear friend last week as well and an Uncle. What an autumnal season this truly is. My sadness is flowing freely and yet also my gratitude for having these dear ones in my life and the lessons they have taught and our teaching me.
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