Wandering Along the Path: Right Speech

My thinking is getting skewered because of worry about our daughter.  Today the next door neighbor had a hot tub put in and used our steps to have the people carry it up.  I snapped at one guy because he was coming through our gate.  I told him they weren't supposed to be in that area.  It turns out he was just handing flats up to the others.  Our sun room is right there and on that side it's a wall of glass.  Also the two big trucks were covering our driveway.  Any little thing shakes me.  I need to be careful I don't act unkindly to others because I'm stressed.  I see some anger in myself.  Anger that our daughter has this disease and has to go through these treatments.  A sense of unfairness arises, even though I know disease isn't fair.  Why her?  These thoughts are not helpful to me or her.  So I want to monitor my thinking and be sure I'm responding not being reactive.  My mind and behavior will have a negative impact if I don't watch it.  I need my heart generosity to be active, and keep with "Don't know".  Let me be especially kind right now.