There is excitement in the air because our younger son recently got engaged, and he and his fiance are looking for a venue for the wedding. Last weekend they saw four, and one was a place I'd been to with my friend a couple of years ago. I listened to my son describe it and a rush of enthusiasm hit me, maybe because I knew the place, and it is beautiful, with lots of places to hike nearby, and also because of my experience with my friend, which was so positive. And all the worry about the plans melted away, as I realized that this wedding was not my responsibility, and this couple were older and confident and both fabulous organizers. I thought to myself: I just have to attend, that's all. Of course we will pay for the rehearsal dinner and other things, but compared to our daughter's wedding a couple of years ago, I am free of responsibility.
I automatically take on worry, guilt and a feeling of responsibility even when it's inappropriate. Letting go is hard for me. Yet freeing. I'm glad I had this epiphany, so I can just enjoy the wedding and events leading up to it. They only need me to show up. I can do that!
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