Wandering Along the Path: Right Speech

We had our women's group on Zoom this morning, because our state is in complete lockdown, so that even masked and distanced, we were not supposed to meet. We discussed how confused we were about how to get tested, if we needed to. I guess I would call my doctor, but she would not test me, and she's only doing phone conversations, but hopefully she could direct me to where I could be tested. All of us described our probable Christmas, and all but one woman was going to be with a piece of her family, but not most of it. We also recommended books, movies and activities we had enjoyed. I recommended going to this historic site an hour away that seemed safe and was wonderful to visit. They had lots of enormous Christmas trees and lights, and the gardens were not crowded and every single person was masked. A couple of us who had managed to go to the local zoo while it was still open felt its closing was unfair. They had limited entrance and everyone had been masked and stayed an appropriate distance away. But still, it is again closed. Gardens and parks are about it right now. And of course there is no monitoring, so if someone is not wearing a mask, and you can't distance fast enough, it's risky. Yesterday I went for two walks around the neighborhood, but sometimes I have to walk in the street to avoid an unmasked jogger or just a person who doesn't wish to comply. It's an obstacle course kind of stress and my state is in crisis, so I'm fearing everything and everyone. Not a good frame of mind for the holidays. I feel like I'm hunkering down in a bunker.