There was a lot of right speech in the almost three weeks I was staying with my older daughter. There was a lot of silence as well, and just being companions in her journey to survive. We had fun, we had laughter, we had tears, we shopped, we ate out, we went to the beach for the weekend, we had a fancy dinner, we saw Min Jin Lee give an amazing, inspiring talk, we discussed wills and trusts, and picked out a recliner for her which she adores, and celebrated my stepson's birthday. I sat beside her as she had her chemo, grocery shopped with her, watched cooking shows with my granddaughter, went out to a movie with my ex-son-in-law (Jo Jo Rabbit), had pizza with him and my granddaughter, and met friends of my daughter and cried some secret tears.
I do not give up. I'm praying the MRI and other scans at the end of the week are good news, not bad, and that she gets to have her book launch, her interviews, the spotlight shining on her creativity and not her cancer. I want her to live with all my heart.
I'm with you and the rest of the family. Walking quietly.
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