Wandering Along the Path: Right Speech

I'm reading a book by Mark Epstein, the psychiatrist and Buddhist, about the Eightfold Path vows, and last night I read about Right Speech.  He was focusing on what we tell ourselves, the stories we tell ourselves that perpetuate denial or myths.  I'd never thought of right speech in that way, but it makes sense that our lying to ourselves is probably the most harmful.  I've discovered, over the years, many instances of that avoidance of the truth by walking meditation, mainly.  I blamed myself for decades about the circumstances of my first marriage, because I didn't want to be a person who had been duped and tricked into marriage.  It was too humiliating.  I had a story going about how "outgoing" I was, but now know I was terribly shy underneath, especially because we moved place to place and I knew no one in the beginning.  I've felt guilty in several friendships when now I realize I was dealing with a narcissist.  Traumas at age two and age five were erased from my memory:  my beloved Uncle Brock being killed in a car crash and my falling down a full flight of basement stairs and being rushed to the emergency room, almost dying.  No wonder I have trouble with heights!  But when the true circumstances surface, however long it takes, a veil has been lifted and I can see myself more honestly and compassionately.